abandoned? i think not.

Holy dang. Where have I been these past two months? Not on blogger, apparently. That much is clear for sure. So, if I haven't been on blogger, where have I been? ...

EVERYWHERE.

Not even kidding. Life as a teenager, while some say is lax, chill, spontaneous, etc, is very NOT those things when you're a teenager with the job of making sure a good yearbook is printed for the entire student body of your school in May. Yeah... when you have pages, the cover, and fundraising to take charge of, you don't really have much time to be 'lax' or 'chill'. Let alone spontaneous! But, rest assured my fellow bloggers. I have not died! Just thought I'd let you know I'm alive and well. :D And as for the yearbook, we're making some serious progress! Our cover design, (which I'm still in the process of planning and executing) is due next Friday. Oh joy. And then, there's the 50-some people I'm in charge of... If they don't get their pages done on time, I get the crap for it. I swear, if I have high blood pressure, it's definitely due to the stress of yearbook. Alas, I cannot complain. I'm loving every second of it. And all that stress? It's just part of the job(:

I'm worried. Concerned, alarmed, shaken... You name it. I live in a good, wholesome community. That much I know. But even in the best of communities, you always have that one slew of friends... The ones who are into drugs and other things waaay beyond their years. The ones I'd personally never EVER want to associate myself with. Because I, simply, am just not like that one bit. And I have good friends. Who are ALSO not like that. If they were, I would not be their friend. However, one of my absolute best friends in the world has been showing signs that they're starting to experiment with drugs. It makes me extremely sad that she's even having thoughts about doing drugs, let alone physically doing them. I'm worried. We've talked openly about her struggles and what's been leading her to experiment, but I know she's still doing them. I just want my friend back.

It's getting colder... Even here, down south. I have to say, I miss summer already. I cannot wait for the days when the harsh winter chill leaves our lives for another year, and glimpses of summer are noticeable. Yes. Those are the days!

he makes my heart beat fast. hope this feeling lasts

'something in your voice

makes my heart beat fast

hope this feeling lasts

the rest of my life <3'

Boys, boys, boys. They think we're confusing and emotional? They should try actually BEING us and having to put up with their crap and mixed signals. They'd never tell us we were overreacting EVER again.

But, I met a good one.

Oh my. Just realized, I might have to clear some things up before I go on :/ WELL, the amazingly fantastic guy i went on a few dates with? (see below :]) Yeah... not so amazingly fantastic after all. Wait. I take that back. He really is. But I realized the reality of our age difference and distance apart. No way it would've worked out during the school year. I was bummed, I will admit.

On the contrary, I met someone! He's the grade ahead of me, plays some mean piano and guitar, loves All Time Low and Mayday Parade (just like me!), loves to run, hates to swim, has the laugh that makes my heart beat fast, and swept me off my feat with his amazing ability to make me smile just by looking in my direction. Oh, and I should probably mention.. He gives me whales in my stomach. Not butterflies, whales (:

We've been together almost a month, and I'm really happy.

Ok, so school starts up AWFULLY soon. Murrrggghhhh :/ But I cannot wait to see everyone again! It's been a truly AWESOME summer, and I have so many stories to tell everyone!

Tomorrow. I'm walking up to the pool with Jack, one of my closest friends. Then, Olivia and I are going to go to the movies and see three in a row. Fun? I think so (:

Then Sunday, I'm hanging out with my boyfriend (: Can't wait! And then Caroline is sleeping over and we're staying up suuuper late. Not! We're the ones who fall asleep at 10 at sleepovers.

Editing (:

Oh gosh. Editing. I had my first experience with it the other day, and I'm HOOKED.

My Favorite Quotes :)

To be honest, I am not usually a quote person. I'd rather go through life making my own quotes. Having my own precious moments... My own beautiful sunsets, kisses in the rain, happiness, and joy. I turn them into my own quotes :) These quotes however (not my own) really hit me as something beautiful. They paint images into my mind and make me wonder... about life... about love... about hope... And here they are :)

Him that I love, I wish to be free -- Even from me.

-Anne Morrow Lindbergh

Why does this quote inevitably describe my heart? I feel like it's being sold to someone who doesn't even take the time to realize it. So to him I say... Give it back! But he can't. He doesn't even know he has it. For some reason, this quote reflects everything I know about that crazy little thing called love... When you love someone, all you want is for them to be happy, even if that means they aren't with you.

I love thee, I love but thee
With a love that shall not die
Till the sun grows cold,
And the stars grow old...

-Bayard Taylor

This one is just... effortless. It's like I could say it all in a single breath. It's sounds familiar to me, too. Ooo scary :)

Why love if losing hurts so much? We love to know we are not alone.

-C.S. Lewis

I breathed a sigh of relief. I'm not alone in this crazy world. And, thank goodness for that.

Why is it, when your looking for that someone, you find no one, but, once you find it, a lot more choices start showing up? But, if you leave that first love, then, they all start drifting away? Is that love's way of testing your true feelings?

-Author Unknown

Maybe they don't know who the author is because the author is ME! No, no, it's not, but ohmygosh it could be. I swear I've said these exact same words at one point. I feel like the feelings of life are inevitable... If they weren't, there wouldn't be words for them. So, when you can describe how you're feeling in words, you know someone else has felt the same way.

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.

-Author Unknown

I should remember this quote more often. Gives me strength.

...And then I carefully sealed away my heart.

-Bella from Twilight (Stephenie Meyer)

Makes me want to cry! :'( Poor Bella.

Don't frown. You never know who might be falling in love with your smile.

-Author Unknown

Yeah, I know... It's pretty corny. But as Kate Winslet says in The Holiday, "I'm looking for corny in my life!"

Well, my homework is calling yet again. C'mon people... school is out in a matter of WEEKS. Why pound us with homework now?! I wish I could just ring a bell and all my homework would just finish itself. I'll take it upon myself to invent that bell.

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Confusion... ???WHAT???

Why can't things be less confusing than what they are? Why can't there be a clear, defined answer to every problem, big or small, that we face in life? Goodness, that would make things so much easier. Especially now. I just wish heartache didn't exist. I could do without that. But, hey, like I ALWAYS say... Everything happens for a reason. :)

Why did someone who broke my heart suddenly have a change of heart? I was so hurt... How can I possibly just erase all of that? That's the thing... I can't.


Unanswered questions eat at my mind.
All I need is some sort of guide.
Do your best and please show me a sign
I wish I could just figure this out.

This One's For The Girls

This year has been one of new things... As each new year should be. Some have been bad, painful things, and others... Have made my life so much sweeter. Like Ekko. I've mentioned them before in my other blog posts, but here is where I'll tell you OUR story. Ekko stands for the names of four amazing girls, Ellie, Katie, Kelly, and Olivia. We are best friends. How we came together is somewhat of an odd story, but all that matters is that we are where we are now. We were all dumped. Horribly, despicably, dumped. Ugh. Anyways, that was our common ground. It was so reassuring to know that I wasn't going through this alone. And while we dished about our ex's, we became thisclose. Life would be so incredibly boring without those girls to share its precious moments with. I love them like sisters, and our friendship means the absolute world to me.

The four of us are soo different, and yet, when we come together, it's like we make a Super Person...

Girlies, if you're out there, just know this... THIS SUMMER IS GOING TO BE THE BEST OF OUR LIVES! We're going to have so much fun with our rock :) I made it even more sparkly lol :) Someday, we're going to see the world together. We're going to meet amazing guys who are the best in the world and that love us for who we are. Our futures are so bright. And I know that we will stay friends forever.

Unbroken ... FINALLY!!

That's right! I did it. For a while now, I've been saying that my heart is no longer broken. But, today feels like a special day. I wanted to document this epic journey of my life here, on my blog for the world to see...

I, Katie, was broken up with, humiliated, and hurt on January 8th, and today, on March 21th, I am officially heartbreak free. I'm 100% over my heartbreaker. YES! :) :) :) :) :-)

And, in fact, I like someone new.

Sydney White

Ok, I love the movie Sydney White, right? Yeah. It's a great movie. I think it really puts life in perspective in a non complicated way that I find hilarious and therefore, I love.

I write on my hands, write myself notes of encouragement on my phone, enjoy sitting in my room writing my blog, and talk to my dog... on occaision :) I'm a dork! :) (AND I'M PROUD!)

Concerts and Good Memories

August was a good month for me. I was in love, and I'll admit that! ...Even if it is to the world... Anyways, I went to my first concert in August. With my boyfriend. That's an ouch. Yes. A definite ouch. We saw John Mayer and OneRepublic... 5th row! It really was amazing, even though I went out of there that day thoroughly believing I was deaf. Goodness, those speakers were out to kill me! We had so much fun. Best date ever, hands down!

Until December, that is. My town hosted Jingle Jam with Colbie Calliat, David Archuletta, GAVIN DEGRAW, We The Kings, and Rehab. GOODNESS! That was the BEST night of my life. Concerts were things my boyfriend and I shared. When he broke up with me, I didn't think I could ever handle going to a concert again. (A bit dramatic, but hey, he had just broken up with me for goodness sake.) And, guess what?! I'm going to another concert. Taylor Swift, actually. It's in October. I can handle it. I'll have the support of my two best friends in the entire world! My mom and my best friend, Mist.

So, the point please, Katie. Oh yes. :) The point of this is to let all of my readers out there who have ever had their heart broken to know that they aren't alone by any means. We who have been victims of heartbreak need to ban together. That's how I met three of my best friends. We now have a group called Ekko, standing for the first letter in each of our names. We are super tight. Guys, There's a reason for everything. And though that reason may be unclear at first, someday we'll wake up. Someday, whenever that may be, we'll realize the lesson behind our agony. Someday... Things will be clear. The Lord is good to us. This is why I believe this to be true. And for all we know, something may happen to us for the sake of it happening. God may just want us to be able to say, "Oh yes, that happened to me." Or maybe there is another reason. What's the reason of my breakup and utter heartbreak? I think I know. It lead me to Ekko. I wouldn't trade those girlies for the world. Well, I hope that helps out the brokenhearted out there. You're not alone. Keep your heads held high and stay in good spirits, and know that those who truly love you will help you through your heartbreak. That's the key. Never let it go.

I wish you nothing but the best.

Kat <3